New Years and Seasons: Embracing Change When You Don’t Feel Ready

“Change is scary, but it is also exciting. It’s all about shifting your perception.” –  MO

You know, I honestly didn’t know how to start this post because it’s been a while since I sat down to write what I felt in my heart, since I connected with my blog. I’ve missed her so much.

Before I dive into these sentimental moments, I would like to say: Happy New Year! Happy Spring! One thing I truly love about a new season is the opportunities we get to reinvent ourselves into whatever version we choose to be.

A Blur

The past few years have seemed like such a blur to me. Honestly, A LOT has happened so much that I don’t even know where or even how to describe those experiences…

One minute you’re trying to build your life and a platform, the next moment you’re going through a Covid 19 lockdown, the life that you were building crumbles, the rose-colored glasses finally breaking off, and the life you thought you once knew evaporates into thin air.

When I look around at everything that’s happening in the world today, I am reminded of those tough moments and how difficult it felt for me. I feel that’s why I somewhat felt compelled to reconnect with my writing and share some of my experiences. In a weird way, it seems like what most people are currently going through was my lived experiences years ago.

I thought my dreams were pretty much over; no matter how hard I worked towards my goals, everything I planned for in my life felt non-existent. I had been employed, unemployed, started a business, was unsuccessful, created content, had my work stolen and repurposed by larger “creators” who never gave credit, felt invisible and underappreciated, regained my mental health, yet somehow still felt small in my own world. Talk about setbacks after setbacks. Yikes.

My heart was broken, I didn’t just want a break, I needed one, but what felt like a short while turned into a very long while. Days turned into months, then months into years. Now here we are!

If for some reason you stumbled across this post and you feel like your life is over because of a mishap, multiple setbacks, or you simply feel late to your own life, hear me when I say this: Breath. Please, just breathe.

Here’s What I Can Tell You Through My Lived Experiences:

One. Your life is not over; you are still living. You are alive.

Two. It is not the end of the story. Maybe the chapter, but not the story.

Three. It gets better. You just have to hold on long enough to feel better.

Four. Your life is just beginning in the most beautiful way possible. You just don’t see it yet.

Five. Happy Reinvention! You are in a transitional phase. You’ll probably have a lot of these, and the sooner you learn to navigate and ride the waves, the stronger you’ll become on your journey.

The truth is, you’re never going to feel like you’re ready for change; sometimes it just sneaks up on you. When you truly think about it, the most transformative moments are usually the ones we don’t plan for. When you experience challenges in your life, you aren’t always prepared for how you handle them; you just do the best you can with the strength you feel you have. Sometimes, we underestimate our own strength, at least I know I did.

When the life I thought I wanted crumbled, it allowed me to see through the illusion; you see things for what they are, people for who they truly are, and yourself for who you’ve always been. You ask yourself three questions: Who am I? Who do I want to be? And is this my happiness?

No matter how much you try to embrace the newness in your life, it is scary. Change can be scary, no matter how prepared you feel you are. You won’t always have the strength for reinvention, especially when it is unexpected. You just learn to put one foot in front of the other, hope to find your balance, and you eventually connect with your momentum.

Happy New Year

In this new season of my life, I would like to reconnect with a version of myself I felt lost, a version of myself I miss dearly. I’ve learned over the years that I don’t always have to have everything figured out, I don’t always have to have the answer to why things happen the way they do, and I don’t have to control everything. Simply being, flowing, and navigating through life as it comes has always been an option.

Change is scary, but it is also exciting. It’s all about shifting your perception.

So, my lovely Gems and to anyone who is currently in the process of reinventing self, and you don’t feel ready, here’s to your new beginnings and beautiful endings.

Remember, you are so much stronger than you feel. I know you are, and a few years from now, when you’ve given yourself the chance to embrace the version of yourself that is currently knocking on your front door, you’ll realize just how capable you’ve always been.

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Gems, just in case no one told you today, I think you are beautiful, and I love you.

With Love,

MO