Refection

Hey, All!

So, It has been two months since I wrote on my blog. One of the reasons I made my blog was not only to share my insight but to work on myself and my writing. It seems like every time I make a commitment to be consistent with my work, my sentences always begin with, ” I know it has been a while”. It really beats the whole purpose, doesn’t it? I have been struggling for a while but that I will talk about in a later post. With a lot going on I have succumbed to using my outlet again. If anyone actually reads the things that I write about, I hope that my words helps and enriches your life in some way. I have struggled in many ways, one being that I began my blog and youtube post with the right and wrong reasons in mind. If you watch my latest youtube HONESTY HOUR I talk a little about this. Yes, I wanted to share my insight but, insight about what?  I was doing every and anything I could to get “viewers” or “attention” still with little effort. So, not only was I moving for the wrong reasons, I was passively moving for the wrong reasons. That was pretty much a recipe for disaster soup, yikes!

I had, to be honest, disappointed myself. I asked myself some questions that I was kinda ashamed to answer.  Questions like:

What did I write when only I feel like it? Why did I expect things to magically become great with little to no effort? Why did I expect a pat on my back ever time I did what is expected of me? Did I fear success more than the fear of failure? Pretty touching self-evaluation question, right? Right.

When we reflect, it might take us a while to truly understand and acknowledge the answers to these questions. The HONEST answers!

Sometimes you realize that it is all about you. You wake up and stop trying to force things to happen. When you try to manipulate a situation to get results and it still is not working, then that is not Gods plan for you. I know, I know. I know what you might be thinking “Oh, are you saying that youtube and blogging are not Gods planned for you?” NO! That is far from the point. I have not even committed to blogging long enough to even force it! Sad, but true.

Here are the differences:

When I do what I feel in my heart that I am meant to do correctly, things will fall into place.

When I do what I feel in my heart that I am meant to do incorrectly (forcing), things will inevitably crumble. (Ex. Completing tasks with little effort and expecting wonderful results)

What if you do things correctly and success does not fall into place?

Three answers:

1. Not yet.
2. Not this.
3. No (See #2)

So, what am I saying? Doing the right things, the right way and having faith for the right results. Yep, pretty much.

I have said it before and I will say it again, I want to be committed to the dang thing.  You know, thinking about it now, I have always had a problem with commitment but I’ll talk about that later.

I have to say committed to my blog because this is what helps me become a better me. With or without people reading this, I will be okay because I am doing this for myself and no one else. Oh-oh, look at me finding the right reasons and whatnot.

So, henceforth, I will be posting one blog post a week about truly reflecting on myself and the things that matter to me. If for some reason I miss a week’s post, I will have two blog post to caught up on. Oh boy, this should be fun!

With love ,

MO

Writer Note: What steps are you taking to become a better you? Find something you want to change, one thing and to commit to it.